I miss his shenanigans

Last week my 4 year old pitbull, Billy Bob, died. I'm still having trouble getting used to the reality of his death. I didn't see it coming. Actually, no. I didn't want to see it... He was sick (leptospirosis), but we were giving him the best vet treatment we could. His vet never actually said he was going to die. But, later on, I found out that Billy's illness was in fact fatal in most cases.

He was a very good dog; kinda crazy, but good. I miss him.

I want to read

My semester ended and a new one just started. No complains so far. Lots of good teachers and interesting classes. 

This semester I intent to make myself busy 24/7. I work better under pressure. Otherwise, I don't get things done, and instead I sleep.

I want to start reading regularly. So today I bought a book recommended by my sister's boyfriend: "Todos los fuegos del fuego" by Julio Cortázar. I know nothing about it and hopefully that will make it all more interesting. 

Expect comments on it soon. Perhaps in Spanish... or not.

Where to be?

I've never really liked the idea of living in New York... But things seem to point out NY is my best (most affordable) option, if I ever do decide to get out of here.

I wanna leave, but it's so hard I'm having trouble figuring out wether it will be worth it or not. Will dropping out and starting all over again be worth it? Or should I just finish this degree here... and then leave to get a second degree? Arrg! These two lil questions mess up my mind and mood worse than my period.

I don't know what I'm going to do... I don't know what I should do.... I don't know anything about Medieval or Renaissance art and I have an Art History final tomorrow. Crap.

Regrets aren't pretty

I went to Houston, TX, came back to DR and since then I've been studying the possibility to leave home and transfer to a college in the US. But there's so much legal crap going on, every time I think about it my head hurts and I get frustrated.

Thinking I've been wasting my time for the last year and half, makes me want to slam doors, break glasses and swear at loud. Essentially, because it's all my fault. I should have made the decision to leave DR the minute I got out of high school. Or at least plan on it since then. That way I wouldn't have wasted as much time!

I keep saying "wasting time", but truth is I've learned a few things here... However, graphic design and web development are two different things! If only school wasn't so time consuming, I could try to learn programming by myself...

Well, enough regretting. *talking to self* Focus, woman! I need to figure out how to get out of this country.

Tu:

• Te alejas y me alejas;
• no confias es mi;
• no compartes lo que piensas/sientes/quieres;
• egoístamente acostumbras decir cosas que sabes que me lastiman y esperas que las aguante siempre porque sabes que te amo;
• sueles creer que mi intención es dificultarte la vida, cuando lo que quiero es ayudarte a conseguir lo que quieres en ella;
• ...

I tend to completely forgive and forget everything you do to me, but I dont want to anymore.

If, instead of scratching off items from this list, I keep adding, then Ill know for sure what I have to do.

Yes, school is back

School's been sucking all of my time... but I can't really complain. I'm enjoying most of my classes :) I love Graphic Design.

This semester I took Photography; that means I'll be posting photographs here soon enough! So far the teacher has: assigned us a research paper and made us watch an HBO film about Spencer Tunick's photography. Boring.

Apparently, my teacher loves Tunick's photography and that is... perturbing, 'cause I don't like this dude's photography at all! I found beauty in like 2 shots out of 300. Nonetheless, I can't ignore the beauty in the project's process. I mean, what people experience and learn through the opportunity to pose nude along with a few hundred other people is just beautiful. Or at least, that's what the movie made me see/feel/think.

Goodbye oh-seven

2007's last night was the oddest night of all. First, I lost my sense of orientation that whole day! I had no idea what day it was, what time it was and sometimes even where I was (I moved a two months ago, so that doesn't help). Everything felt weird. Time went by slowly. And, to my surprise, I didn't do anything. I didn't go out as I thought I would and I didn't stay awake until sunrise.

This year's start wasn't exactly bad, but it wasn't good either; and definitely not what I had planned. :( I hope that's not the prelude to my 2008 Life Story.

Anyway, I started school yesterday (Thursday)... And already professors are missing classes. They think their time is 100 times more valuable than ours. Don't you just hate that? When you're forced to waste your time like that? Wasting time is only fun when you are procrastinating, otherwise is irritating. Grrr. I'm gonna go now.